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31 12 2014

So this year will be over in a few hours. It feels odd. It feels empty for reasons unknown. I don’t know why. Maybe because I walked away. Maybe because I finally got tired of the bullshit. Tired of the wasted time. At the time of this typing at 9:07am on 12/31/2014, the depression has continued at times to grow. To get stronger. It increases and then wanes. I’m having to deal with it right now.

The hatred has grown so strong at times that I want to bring back the Nazi regime and cause chaos from Nebraska with the death of Kelly and her kids. As well as her sisters and brother as well as her parents. Her boyfriend too and his kids and his family members. If I had explosives, I’d use them on her store, her house. The church that she attends. Her parents vehicle. Her sister’s house in Lincoln. I would wait for her brother-in-law, in Denver, to go somewhere with his son and blow up the vehicle with the two of them in it as Anna watched in horror. I’d destroy the entire Omaha police force. The First National Bank building. The Mayor. The Capitol building in Lincoln Nebraska. Take over the entire United States. Give the KKK an option of either joining the Nazi regime or dying.

I don’t have any New Year’s Resolutions for 2015. I’m still smoke free. Still don’t have a job. That too causes the depression to come about. Not to mention the fact that I’m 35 and I don’t see where my life is going. I want to go out to California and pursue acting but I fear that may not happen. I just don’t know. I’m not afraid of death. I make $300 a month by having needles shoved into my arms.

I launched my other YouTube channel 2 weeks ago. There will not be any links to it due to the fact that I do not want that stalker or her stalking family to view or comment on my channel. Same goes for the Facebook page, the Twitter page, Instagram and Twitch pages. I started a 3rd WordPress blog just in case that bitch cannot respect my wishes. You know I want that bitch not to give in to my demands so that I could have the privilege of seeing her expression for when I take her life.

AirAsia flight

30 12 2014

It’s sad hearing about the people who lost their lives in the AirAsia crash that happened just recently. Kids and adults gone. Guilt racks those that denied the captain of that flight the ability to change course due to the weather. A decision that might have cost the lives of those onboard. It will take 6 months to a year before we find out what happened in those last few minutes onboard that plane. May those that lost their lives, rest in peace with that of the Angels from that of Father.

2014 in review

29 12 2014

The stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.

Here’s an excerpt:

A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 1,200 times in 2014. If it were a cable car, it would take about 20 trips to carry that many people.

Click here to see the complete report.

24 months

25 12 2014

2 years! 2 years that I have remained smoke free. Saved over $3100 to date! That’s crazy! I probably have about 2-3 occasions or thoughts or dreams about smoking in a single month. It’s the dreams that really trip me out! But I’m surprised that I’ve been this strong with this.

24 12 2014

Now either Kelly dropped off presents in Lincoln to spend Christmas in Omaha or she’s in Lincoln. Scrap that. She’s in Omaha cause Anna is supposedly visiting Kelly in Omaha.

24 12 2014

Sucks doesn’t it?? But what’s funny as hell is the fact that you’ve let other people into your life with no problems. With no conflict or bullshit. But with me, that’s a totally different story. Treat me like a fucking monster or a fucking rapist or whatever, when I didn’t do shit to you! You’re about dumb as fuck you know!


23 12 2014

Had trouble sleeping this morning. Had thoughts dealing with the cops and what have ya dealing the bullshit dealing with Kelly. Also pissed because my sleep is back to being off track again! After all I did to get it back on track!

Oh god

21 12 2014

oooooooh man that is funny. Seeing my father on tv, BUT in a good way though!

Oh that is funny

18 12 2014

So about a couple of minutes ago when I was on my secondary Instagram account (the one for my YouTube channel), I go over to Kelly’s page and see that she lost 4000 “followers”! I thought this shit was funny! Her sister lost 700 followers. It seems that Instagram/Facebook started cracking down on the fake accounts and results are priceless!

11 12 2014

Ohh this is starting to get more enjoyable every day.















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