Really??

30 09 2013

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Let it go…..really?? I’m sorry but you do not fully understand the whole thing behind full-on depression. I have no control over it. It comes and it goes. It shows itself a lot whenever I think or see something that reminds me of what you did to me. Whether it’s applying for a job, or buying stuff, or watching tv or listening to a song. It shows itself whenever I see a happy couple or a young family. Hell right now it’s coming about because of the song that I’m listening to and the fact that I’m writing this piece. You know you want this shit to end. The rambling, the yelling, the hatred. But yet you have yet to give me the one thing that could end the depression. You have yet to give me closure. You have yet to answer my questions. To give me back my bookbag, the last 6 years, the 10 months of freedom that you stole from me. I have lost a lot because of you. Can you really understand why I don’t want to go back to Nebraska? Because I lost my job. Because I went to jail. Because I got evicted from my place. Because I lost everything that I worked hard for and to get last year. You killed my reputation. You killed my name. I can not get a job with anyone that does a background check. That’s why I haven’t applied for a job recently. And that shit does not help the depression. Not applying for a job nor landing a job. That shit just makes it more depressing. But yet you don’t fucking care, to you you think that it’s nothing major. That it’s nothing to worry about, but that’s where you’re wrong. I have thoughts of taking your life. Your kid’s lives. Your sister’s lives. Your brother’s life. Your parents lives. All over the fact that you fucked up my life. That you felt that you could play God. That you could play with, control someone’s life. To ruin it, to destroy, to kill a person and any dreams that they may wish to accomplish. My question is this….Do you have problems sleeping with a guilty conscience?? Maybe you should. Maybe you should confess. Repent. Come clean. So Kelly, what’s it gonna be?? Oh and let me give you a heads up. I can not be held accountable for any and all of my actions. So in the end do not tell me what to do when you can’t even heed anything.





Obsessed by VeryFine Right

29 09 2013

One time!





A letter

29 09 2013

Writing a letter right now to someone that severely affected my life on every single level that there is known to exist.





Breaking Bad

29 09 2013

So Breaking Bad is over, sucks for everyone. Oh well I guess I could always buy the entire series or rent it or whatever. But at least I don’t have to deal with anymore of the Breaking Bad spoilers or whatever.





hmmm interesting

29 09 2013

So I get 67 hits this morning which I was only hoping for 30 some odd hits. So I scroll down my stats page on my i5 and I see that the person from Omaha had put in my name in some search terms. They put very fine eight blog ric kilbrew. Umm okay. Couldn’t have been Kelly because she knows that VeryFine is not separated, EVER! What’s this “eight”?? Is that suppose to be Right?! And “kilbrew”?? Umm it’s KILLEBREW! Kil-le-brew! Sound it out. Kill-the-brew! Not kilbrew! That sounds like one of three things. 1.) They’re drunk when they typed it into the search part. 2.) They either misheard it or mispronounced it. 3.)  They were given the wrong info i.e. the person who gave them the info was either distracted or busy doing something or in a rush i. e. not suppose to be on the phone while working or driving. Now it seems that the person who had the info could have also misled them as well. That they INTENDED on giving the other person the wrong info. This person could have been distracted themselves when they were writing it down, if they had even done that, but I doubt that. Now here’s where it gets really odd. The device that was used to make these 67 hits on. A 5th generation Apple iPod Touch with the new iOS 7 on it. iOS 7.0.2 to be exact. Now either the person done this because that was the only portable device that they had OR that was the only device that they could discretely view my blogs on OR the other device that they had was dead and the iTouch was the only device that was usable at the time. But I won’t know everything until later this year.





29 09 2013

One time!

Welcome to the Commonwealth of two up and two down/





today 9/28/1979

28 09 2013

You knew that it was a special day for me/ you couldn’t return the favor/ I mentioned it to you back on August 28th/ But no/ And you knew this from all of these years/ But you got excuses, lies/ Doin’ this, bitch don’t deny6212_1205648299239_1169594413_30620175_1837168_s/ Cause you posted this pic on this exact day back in 2009/ Cause there’s only one person, that you know/ who was born today/ VeryFine!/ So don’t even try (to try)/ Girl I don’t want to hear the lies (oh lies)/ What would you do if really meant goodbye, this time around??/ would you cry?/ Blow it off?/ I unliked your ass all across the board/ this is what happens when you piss me off/ oooohhhhhhhh





Okay

28 09 2013

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So just now, I go downstairs to tell my mother something and I’m at the dining room table. I look at the envelope that I received the other day dealing with my food stamps. It says that it’s from Virginia Dept. Of Social Services. Okay no problem, but when did they relocate to Austin Texas??





GTA V

28 09 2013

So Rockstar and Take-Two are going to be coming out with GTA V for PC. I’m super stoked now! I got the new Batman game coming out next month and then GTA V on Nov. 22nd 2013.





Book cover for Vanilla Coves Private Eye

28 09 2013

Chase Burroughs had only a couple of years under his belt when the FBI case that he did six months ago, had thrusted him into the national eye. Whenever anyone needed a case solved or a person found, they immediately called Chase. If they couldn’t call him, they called the diner; his favorite hangout spot.
Grace Evansly was a woman whom anyone would love to have in their presence. But there laid two questions that needed to be answered. Why was she in Vanilla Coves? And who are those men that are chasing her?? More importantly why can’t she remember who she is??!








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